[BTS fanfic] Love me, not (6)

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<< Love me, not (5)

Jin made omelette that morning.
She sat at the end of the table.
Jimin, Jungkook and Hobie already sat down like nestlings waiting for mama bird to feed them.
She smiled, they were so cute.
Namjoon casually sat beside her.

Yoongi came and put a mug of coffee in front of her.
She blushed that Namjoon teased,"he must be your bias after all" making her blushed even more.
Yoongi sat at the other end though, not even once looking at her
Swag king, she thought timidly while smiling...

"Let's eat!!" Jin shouted and they were eating comfortably, except her legs begun to fidget.

"Are you working, noona?" Namjoon started the conversation, making it less awkward.
"I'm a teacher."
Woaaa the others started to join in.
The conversations got deeper, they started talking about what they want to achieve in life and what is their purpose of life and so on.

Yoongi looked at her with full admiration.
A grown up lady, with responsibilities in life as daughter who took care of her stage-4 cancer mother, a teacher who teach the kids and a sister of two younger brothers.

"But when it comes to BTS, I am a 16 years old fangirl"
They laughed.

***

I'm not going to the concert. Sorry... 10.20AM
Why not? You don't get the ticket? :( 10.27AM
Yeah. Have fun! You guys are going to be great, as always :) 10.29AM
..
Hey, I got staff pass. You can go to the rear entrance, I will ask our manager to give it to you. 12.08PM

It was 1PM, 7 hours before the concert started. 

"Ma, can I go out tonight?"

"Where to?"

"mmm...concert"

I was nervous, actually expecting her answer as no.

I never go to any concert, especially not kpop concert.

My mom not against my fond towards kpop but she's neither support it.

"You're grown up woman Hana, do what you feel right. Don't live you life regretting things later"

"Ma..." T_T

***

I was walking here and there until I found a door to the concert venue.

I stood there the whole time, watching their performances.

During vocal line performance, suddenly someone tapped my shoulder.

I turned my head, and there he was...as stunning as ever.

Black-haired Yoongi.

"H-hi.." I was trembling for sure.

He slightly hold my elbow and gave a gesture to follow him.

We walked pass the first level alley, went 2 level upstairs, into a spectator room.

"Stay here" and he went off.

I was dumbfounded.

Then a text came in,

It's me Yoongi. Sorry I used Namjoon's name before.

After vocal line, the rap line performed Cypher 4

Then it was Yoongi solo stage, with a piano

he started singing First Love...

towards the end of the song, he sang

geu modeun geol jikyeobol neoil tenikka *breath* *breath*

he stopped,

he looked up.

eventhough it was more than 100m away between me and the stage, 

deep down I knew, he looked at me...

he then started singing in english

even when I pushed you away

even when I resented meeting you

you were firmly by my side

you didn't have to say anything

so don't ever let go of my hand

I won't let you go ever again either

I can't hold it anymore, tears were falling over both my cheeks 

He sang the song to the end, then said while looking at the camera

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

The crowd went crazy screaming...

'caught in a lie~' my phone suddenly started ringing 

my brother talked in a harsh tone, "go back now, ma admitted to hospital"

I'm not sure if it's my imagination but I could listened to a thunderstorm, break through my heart.

I left the stadium.

The concert ended.

Yoongi rushed upstairs after the group photo, saying that he needed to go to the toilet.

He entered the room, empty.

He was about to turn around but saw something on the table.

The staff pass, and a note.

I'll always be your ARMY.Thank you. -Hana 

He tried to call me later but no answer.

That night, he got a text from me

Before the concert, my mom said to me to live my life the way I wanted with no regret. But she don't make it tonight in the hospital. I can't help but regret to not stay with her.
Thank you BTS for being a part of my youth.
And now I want to move on.
Love me, not.
May you find success in everything you do and may all your treasured dreams come true.
Good bye.

::The END::

ps. Thank you to those who read from beginning to end. it's my first fanfiction, it's kinda boring but i still love how it turned out this way even though i changed the storyline many times. Thank you again. I love you fam <3

Until my next fanfic, adios amigos ;)

[BTS fanfic] Love me, not (5)

<< Love me, not (4)


It was 2AM.
Jungkook was giving her a piggyback to their dorm.
Jin walked beside him while looked around making sure no one were watching them since they dropped off.
They took a taxi from Hongdae.

Jin opened their dorm's door.
To his surprise, Joon and Jimin were standing at the entrance.

"Where the hell are you going, hyung? Do you see Jungkook? You both not even picking up your f***ing phone!" Joon was obviously worrying pissed off while Jimin looked so worried.
Then they both became silence when they saw Jungkook with her.

"What's going on?" Jimin asked.
"Joon-hyung, let me use our room. I'll use my bed" Jungkook said and walked straight to their room.
Jin later explained the situation. Tae who slept on the couch in the living room was awake now and eavesdropped their conversation. Same goes to Yoongi from his room. Hoseok was sleeping soundly.
Jungkook came out from the room and fell himself on Tae.

"Yahhh" Tae screamed in pain then pulled himself off the couch.
"I'm tired" Jungkook said with his eyes closed.

"Let's all sleep here tonight. I don't want to wake Yoongi up" Jin said. He afraid his roomate might woke up if he went into the room now.
Jimin laid down beside Jungkook and hugged him tight. Tae slapped Jimin's head and forced him to sleep in their room.
Joon and Jin took a seat and dozed off in sitting position.

The night passed.

***

"You're awake?" Joon asked politely. I always love to hear whenever he speak English in their videos.
Now listened he said it personally, I was pretty sure I blushed.
"You look red. Are you hurt?"
I put my hands on both my cheeks. I cannot look straight to their faces.
"Aniya. Gwenchana."

Then I realized I wasn't wear my scarf I started panicking.
Jin seemed to know what's going on he immediately pulled my scarf on the chair and gave it to me.
"Ahh...sorry," Joon turned his face from me.
I was blushing even more, wore my scarf and pulled the blanket up to my nose.
"What's happened?" I mumbled.
The door snapped open, Tae jerked his head inside.
"Morning noona. I told you, you should just stay... see you later."
Tae soon left for his acting schedule.

That morning passed very fast.
I had had a light breakfast with all of them but Tae, Joon explained the situation last night, later they dropped me by at the train station before they went to the bighit studio for their routine practices.

Here I was, in the airport one day later, waiting for my flight
It was a hectic week and now thinking back, I was very glad for the chance
to come here
to meet them
personally.

beep beep
a text came in,

Noona, please come again. have a safe flight. I love you.

it came from unknown number
I immediately believed it was one of them
someone must took my number while I was sleeping
but who?
so I replied,

Thank you. Who's this?

no reply.
even after few months passed since then,
there's no reply.
I was back to my daily routine, they were done promoting their new album in Korea and started their world tour.

***

I met them again
by wearing staff's tag, I stood near an entrance watching them perform on stage
it was incredible. at last, I was able to be there in their concert
since I came back from to Korea last year, I started to withdraw myself from the fandom
too busy with work and just coming back from Mecca, it felt wrong to be a fangirl again
one year passed means one year older, I guess it's my time to stop.
9 years as kpop fan and 2 years as ARMY, I barely managed to stop myself.

even after knowing BTS came to Malaysia, I don't have time to fight over the ticket which sold out very fast..
but then I got a text from that number the day before the concert,

Hi. I miss you. Do you come to the concert? Let's meet again. It's Namjoon here :)

Love me, not (6) >>

  

[BTS fanfic] Love me, not (4)

<< Love me, not (3)

Without me realized, I was standing on the busy street of Hongdae.
Everything happened so far seemed like a dream.

So far away, if I had a dream, if only I had a flying dream

So far away by AgustD can be heard from nearby karaoke premise.
Like a background sound to my cold heart.
It was 3°C and i'd been spending hours outside. My heart froze in a way everything around me seemed surreal.

I went into the karaoke shop and started making payment for one person deal.
I started singing Hold Me Tight with all my heart.
I sang two more BTS songs with mispelled lyrics. I cant read hangul in the screen nor i remembered their lyrics.

I almost made myself into tears when suddenly two men came into the room.
They spoke in korean.

"Sorry i don't speak korean"
"Ahh"

Then one of the men sprayed something on my face. I was shocked but within seconds it was all blurred away.
The last things I heard before I passed out were a loud thump and someone's scream. A familiar voice.

***

(In korean)
"I'm sorry hyung. I don't mean to bring any harm. It just I promised to her before. And I believed her."
Sigh.
"My bad. I'm just too paranoid. We never know her though."

Hoseok smiled. It was only a minute after she went out with Joon and Jimin.
Now Yoongi and Tae were all good.
They had been together for more than 3 years, nothing could broke them apart so easily.

Suddenly Jin came out from his room, still fully dressed.

"I want to take some air."

Hoseok, Tae, Yoongi and Jungkook just looked at Jin dashed out to the front door without a word.

One. Two. Three.

"I want to go out too" said Jungkook.

Hoseok shrugged his shoulder to Tae who gave him a what's-going-on look.

"I'm sleepy. Good night." Yoongi went into his room.

Hoseok also went into his room while Tae lied down on the couch. Within minutes, he was already in the dreamland.

Jin was few metres away from Jimin and Joon. He was curious with her.
A girl with hijab, refuse to shake his hand, since then he searched about muslim on the web.
He came across to many islamophobia articles that shook him.
When Tae said about his promise to meet her, Jin felt weird and insecure, yet he wanted to meet her again and asking questions.
He can't say much knowing he don't speak English.
After came into the dorm he went straight into his room but when Yoongi argued with Tae, he only looked through the slightly open door.
Then he chose to follow them out.
Even after she farewell with them, Jin still followed her until they reached Hongdae.
Without Jin knowing that Jungkook was behind him all the times.

Jin later saw the two men went into the karoake room and started panicking.
He turned around and saw someone with black snapback and black shirt marched passed him to the room.

Jungkook slamed the door, hard.
"Yahh"

***

The next thing I remembered I was lying on a bed. The room was a bit messy and I saw a lot of plushies.
My head was still feeling dizzy.
Then the door was opened from outside.
Joon entered the room with towel on his hand followed by Jin with a cup.

What?
Namjin?

Love me, not (5) >>

[BTS fanfic] Love me, not (3)

"Noona, you like Korea?"
"Yeah, very much. This is my third time here. Now that i met you, I love Korea even more"
"Jeongmal?"

Even though I could not see his face, I knew he was smiling.
Me too, I was smiling throughout the bike.

*****

I was standing behind public phone post at Hongdae station.

It was 8:30 p.m. 

For the past one hour, I was wondering if I am in my right mind to believe and wait there.

But who's to blame? 

They're superstar. Worldwide. Come one Hana, who have time to meet you in a busy Hongdae.

Even Jungkook went there alone before, but that's just him being extra.

But still I waited. And waited. 

It was 15 minutes before 10 p.m. when suddenly a masked man pulled me by the shoulder.

I almost screamed but he spoke under his heavy breath,"It's me, Jimin"

His left hand wrapped behind my shoulder while he pulled me to a black van parked nearby.

The van's door opened as we approached it, and I could see Rapmon behind the door.

"Come in"

I jumped into the van and sat beside Rapmon while Jimin came in after me went to the back seat.

In the darkness but light streets, I looked around...

I could see Tae on the one seat behind me, 

Jin at the front seat and their manager was the driver,  

Jimin sat beside Yoongi while at the back seat were Hobie and Jungkook.

"Noona"

Tae's voice brought me back to background sounds.

Before I could only heard my own heartbeats.

I was so scared to the point my mind was blank, my mouth locked.

The feeling of being kidnapped.

But when I actually realized that my kidnapper was BTS, I was more stunned and speechless.

And my face was pale due to shock I was feeling at that moment.

"Noona, gwaenchana?" 

"Yeah, I'm okay" 

I managed to pull a smile now.

Tae was smiling back, more cheerful :)

Rapmon later tried to explain the situation,

they just finished their schedule, it should ended much earlier 

Tae remembered his promise so he asked the manager to pull over near Hongdae

and to his surprise, I was there.

So I asked,"where are we going now?"

"our dorm" Tae said with his merry voice.

I couldn't help myself but looked aghast by the answer.

I could also heard Yoongi annoyingly heavy sigh from behind.

And I could feel some kind of tension in the van.

Everyone became so quiet.

"So you know..." the manager interrupted, "I'm against this. Don't take out your phone or anything and just left soon after."

"Hyung!" Tae protested.

Rapmon tried to calm the situation speaking korean that I could not understand.

Without me noticing, we were already arrived to their dorm. 

"I promised you. So come" Tae said while they were getting ready to go out the van.

One thing I was so sure, my mind was completely out of order and I became like a puppet.

Just followed the situation, not being able to give much thought.

And now, I was in their dorm. While other seems don't care and Yoongi looked the most distracted, they went into their respected rooms.

Only me with Tae and Rapmon at the living room.

Tae asked me to sit while he started to pick things up. Rapmon asked few questions just to get me comfortable, I guess.

"Do you want some water?"

"It's okay, I have mine." I bought a bottle of mineral water, a can of coffee and a chocolate bar from the convenient shop while waiting at the station.

Tae then sat beside me, one arm away, he knew to give me some space, I respected him for that.

He looked tired though but trying to cheer up the night.

Yoongi came out his room and went to the kitchen for water.

He looked very mad, I felt sad. 

He was my bias after all.

But I cannot blame him.

This whole situation felt like a mess.

"Tae, I should go back now"

He stared at me, looking sad.

"It's dark. You can stay."

"Are you f&#%$ real?" Yoongi snapped.

"yah hyung..geugeon mulye hae"

They started arguing while Rapmon tried to stop them.

Jungkook, Jimin and Hobie also came to the living room but looking helpless.

"I'll just go" 

I stood up immediately but Tae pulled my wrist.

Then I took my hand away almost knocked him in the face.

"Nae mome sondaeji ma" I sounded so weird but those words I learned from Ailee's Don't Touch Me

"I shouldn't be here. Sorry."

I went to the front door when Rapmon said,"I send you to the station" while taking his coat.

Tae wanted to come as well but Jimin stopped him.

I could listened to words like stay and sagwa without looking back.

I walked to the nearest station with Rapmon and Jimin beside me.

The night seemed gloomy.

We walked in silence.

When I could see the underground train station from afar, I pulled my courage and face them.

"You can go back now. Thank you for sending me over. Thank you for everything. Please say my sorry to Tae for being rude just now. Please take care of yourselves. BTS fighting!"

I said those words in seconds without waiting for their reply, I turned and walked over to the station.

"Noona"

I stopped and turned around.

"Take care too." Rapmon gave me his dimpled smile.

No. I don't regret what happened that night.

I just pray that Tae and Yoongi settled down. 

I am not worth to be the reason they were fighting.

Still feeling weird, did Tae likes me? Is it because of our bike trip together?

At that time, I do not have even a slightest idea, 

it was not Tae who like me.. 

but him.

<< Love me, not (2)

Love me, not (4) >>

[BTS fanfic] Love me, not (2)

I met BTS the night before during Music Bank as a bonus of winning the contest. 

There were 7 of us, the winners, we had so much fun with our bias group.

It was still like a dream though, it happened too fast, like I was living up my dream of meeting them all these while.

Then after personally met them, I love them even more. 

It was short but memorable night.

The recording for our journey was ended.

I had two more days in Korea before went back to my country.

I decided to go to Han river, by myself while the others went for a drink. 

Since I don't drink, I went for a walk along the river. 

It was during sunset, a very beautiful view to contemplate. 

Until I saw two beautiful men on bikes came towards me. 

The sun’s orange was mingling with the light blue colour of the sky and it produced a vast contrast of different colours. 

It was like watching a screen slowly changing colours. The scene was truly beautiful. 

The dull light of the sun with these two perfect men somehow illuminated everything in a way I had never seen them before. 

Everything was almost still and the effect of the light made the scene look like one in a painting. 

"Noona!!!!"

I was shocked and jumped to the sidewalk, lied down on the grass.

'Shrikkkkk' 

The bike's brake can be heard clearly. 

I was too stunned to even lift my head.

'What just happened?'

"Hana noona? R u okay?"

It was a familiar voice and of course I know who's talking since i was looking at them. 

I turned my body suddenly that I almost hit him with my knee. 

There was Taehyung with his worried face. And I saw Jungkook was parking his bike beside Tae's fallen bike. 

"Yeah I'm okay"

I put myself up. Tae stood back a little bit giving me some space. 

Now all three of us were laughing I don't really know why but I think that was the only way to express our absurbness. 

We had a small talk although we sounded like three aliens from two different planets talking to each other. 

But we worked it out, communication os all about give and receive the message in whatever possible means. 

Suddenly Tae asked, "want bike with me?"

It was obvious he was asking me to sit on the back seat of his bike. 

Without giving much thought, I agreed. 

Like in drama, a couple on the same bike. 

With the sky darkens with splash of yellowish sunset as the background. 

And the wind, it was very peaceful that all the awkwardness gone between us. 

...

Just before we said goodbye, Tae once again asked something,

"U want hangout...with me? Tomorrow?"

Who can say no to them? To him?

"Yeah sure. Where?"

"Meet me...hongdae station, 8pm tomorrow?"

Jungkook looked puzzle. I was feeling weird too but again, who can say no?

"Okay"

"Bye noona"

"Bye..."

..

.

V just asked me out, right?

[to be continued]


<< Love me, not (1)

Love me, not (3) >>                                   

[BTS fanfic] Love me, not (1)

I was standing there, still.

The moment I reached their waiting room, I was stunned and not be able to lift my hand to open the door. 

Suddenly the door opened itself. 

Jin was a bit shocked to see me but then he smiled brightly.

"Are you the talk talk winner?" He asked in english, with korean slang. 

"Y-yes, I am." 

"Please come in."

Jin opened the door widely, and immediately I saw Yoongi with his white skin. I saw others too but cannot take my eyes off him. And I was still standing there, not moving by inch. 

Jin took my wrist but I snatched away hurriedly. Jin seems puzzled by my action and immediately apologized. 

"N-no, no. I am sorry. I don't touch guys. Don't feel offended. It just me," I tried to explain in shaky voice but Jin didn't seem to understand me. 

Namjoon came towards us and tried to calm me down and asked me to come in. 

And this time, I did. 

After a proper introduction of myself, they now understand with the help of Namjoon to translate. 

I am a muslim. But an army too. 

I love them, but I cannot touch them. 

I win myself a chance to meet bangtan but I'm not like most fans - shake their hands, hi-five, or even hugs. 

I could only talk or smile to them. 

Somehow they felt comfortable around me. 

Eventhough we had language barrier, we could still talk to each other, do aegyo, laughed together and of course singing. 

Most of the time Namjoon did the talking as well as the ever-lasting bright person Tae. 

I was older compared to all of them but somehow we managed to adapt with each other very fast. 

And I had so much fun being around them. 

It was a dream comes true. 

What's better than that, an army meets her star. 

Until I realized one of my stars was in love with me. 

To be continued...

Love me, not (2) >>

T/N Usually fanfic is telling you a story of idol in love with another idol in the same or other group. I'm against same gender marriage. It is what I believe in. So gay relationship is not my thing. Still i feel like writing a fanfic. It is really a fanfic, my fanfic on how I get involved in love between my stars. Have u watched Monstar? It is one of my fav drama. A star can fall in love with normal people like us ;)