#REFLECTION

I know 
Every life's a movie
We got different stars and stories
We got different nights and mornings
Our scenarios ain't just boring
I find this movie very amusing
Everyday, I want to shoot it well
I want to caress myself

Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage.

But you know, sometimes
I really really hate myself
To be honest, quite often,
I really hate myself
When I really hate myself, I go to Dduksum 
I just stand there with the familiar darkness

And then is heard no more; it is a tale told by an idiot full of sound and fury

The world is just another name for despair
My height is just another diameter for the earth
I am all of my joy and anxiety
It repeats everyday.

Signifying nothing.

It was another favourite poem of mine
Life's Brief Candle..

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day

To the last syllable of recorded time,

And all our yesterdays have lighted fools

The way to dusty death. Out, out brief candle!

Life's but a walking shadows, a poor player,

That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,

And then is heard no more; it is a tale

Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,

Signifying nothing.

 William Shakespeare

What have you reflected on your life?
How would you end up dying for?

#LIE

I am still the same person I was before

I am here, the same person I was from before, but

An overgrown lie is trying to swallow me whole

Caught in a lie

Find me when I was pure

I can’t be free from this lie

Give me back my smile

Caught in a lie

Pull me from this hell

I can’t be free from this pain

Save me, I am being punished

In our usrah, she told us; we should acknowledge what we feel, don't say we are okay when we're not.
Don't live in a denial state, cause all we do is buiding up a wall and we're going to bury ourselves within that wall.

So yeah, I'm not okay.

Since Dec 2015, that I became army, I'm not okay.
BTS is the wall I've created.

I caught in a lie...
It is such a pain, but bliss too; a guilty pleasure.

I can't be free.
Sometimes I wish I never know them, or kpop at all.
But sometimes, I'm glad I met them and be inspired with their musics and all...

I want to awake and fly away
But I want to dream more.

Save me.

Because I am being punished.

"Hati yang kotor itu ibarat botol yang berlumpur, tidak kira sebersih mana air yang masuk akhirnya bercampur lumpur takkan ada yang mahu minum. Bersihkan hatimu, jika mahu iman itu masuk ke dalam jiwamu"

#LOST

I'm still standing here with my eyes closed

Lost between the deserts and oceans
I'm still wandering
Where should I go?

I didn’t know there were this many
Paths I can’t go and paths I can’t take
I never felt this way before
Am I becoming an adult?

This is too hard,
is this path right for me
I am confused
Never leave me alone
I still believe even though it’s unbelievable
To lose your path
Is the way to find that path

Lost my way
Constantly pushing without rest within the harsh rainstorms
Lost my way
Within a complicated world without an exit
Lost my way
Lost my way
No matter how much I wander, I want to believe in my path

I once saw an ant going somewhere
There is no way to find the path at once
Constantly crashing and crawling forward
To find something to eat, roaming for days
You know
There is a reason for all this frustration
I believe that we’re on the right path
If we ever find it
We will return home at once just like an ant

So long
Goodbye to my hope with no promise
So long
Even if I’m slow I will walk with my own feet
Because I know this path is mine to take
Even if I go back, I will reach this path eventually
I never I will never
I will never lose my dream

Lost my way
Found my way
Lost my way
Found my way

cr. kpopviral 

This song is now my favourite song in WINGS
The lyrics brought Tomorrow vibe and the melody is beautifully eargasm, just stunning!


And it make me remember that old poem by robert frost...

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

Make a life. It's your choice, our choice ;)