#LOST

I'm still standing here with my eyes closed

Lost between the deserts and oceans
I'm still wandering
Where should I go?

I didn’t know there were this many
Paths I can’t go and paths I can’t take
I never felt this way before
Am I becoming an adult?

This is too hard,
is this path right for me
I am confused
Never leave me alone
I still believe even though it’s unbelievable
To lose your path
Is the way to find that path

Lost my way
Constantly pushing without rest within the harsh rainstorms
Lost my way
Within a complicated world without an exit
Lost my way
Lost my way
No matter how much I wander, I want to believe in my path

I once saw an ant going somewhere
There is no way to find the path at once
Constantly crashing and crawling forward
To find something to eat, roaming for days
You know
There is a reason for all this frustration
I believe that we’re on the right path
If we ever find it
We will return home at once just like an ant

So long
Goodbye to my hope with no promise
So long
Even if I’m slow I will walk with my own feet
Because I know this path is mine to take
Even if I go back, I will reach this path eventually
I never I will never
I will never lose my dream

Lost my way
Found my way
Lost my way
Found my way

cr. kpopviral 

This song is now my favourite song in WINGS
The lyrics brought Tomorrow vibe and the melody is beautifully eargasm, just stunning!


And it make me remember that old poem by robert frost...

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

Make a life. It's your choice, our choice ;)

#MAMA

You had me feel the world
The breath you have created
Today more than usual
I want to be held in your arms
What is higher than anything above the ground
What is wider than anything beneath the sky
The only one, mother’s hand is medicine hand
You are forever my placebo

I love mom

Whenever I listen to songs like this
you raise me up
number 1 for me - maher zain
and many more songs about mother, how she changed your world

i feel small.
i'm not a good daughter
not becoming great person career-wise
or rich to support my mom

now she's sick
i'm taking care of her, but sadly i still make her sad at times
different opinion makes into misunderstanding and fight over trivial things
be patient, that's what people keep saying to you
easier said than done

she keep saying she loves me
i love her too, but i can't say it with honesty
for me, without pure intention and action, saying i love you will sound so fake

but still i said it, afraid i might never ever get the chance to utter that words again to her

ma,
please be healthy soon
Allah,
give her healthiness and calmness to get through her sickness

get well soon, ma
i love you, i really do :'(


your forever childish daughter,
Hana

#STIGMA

to you my brothers and sisters, who will never read my blog or know this side of me... 

I’m sorry, I’m sorry,

I’m sorry ma brother

No matter how much I hide it and cover it up, it doesn’t go away

“Are you calling me a sinner?”

What else can I say 

because i was annoyed, whenever you guys talked about this and that

giving opinion, but trying to enforce on others 

while you guys just talked, maybe with little to no action

when i tried to speak up my opinion, you guys blame me of being a preacher

little experience or knowledge of some sorts

so am I a sinner? 

I’m sorry, I’m sorry,

I’m sorry ma sister

No matter how much I hide it and cover it up, it doesn’t go away

So cry

Please dry my eyes

because i was mad, whenever you girls showed your concern through words

but can never change the fact you are married and hv someone else to take care of

when you girls started having secrets between you and your partner 

while me as your own family member was left out

so should i just watch and cry?

growing up and apart;

when my brothers and sisters are all married couple

have more commitments, less time together

when i said, i miss you and our moments together

you start asking me to plan a trip together

i miss you, but it won't change the fact you are not the same anymore

and those moments would never ever be the same again

i'm sorry my brothers

i'm sorry my sisters

i'm blaming myself now

cause i will never understand myself what you've been through

and please,

don't burden me 

cause you will never understand what i've been through

i love you, still...

forever your sister,

Hana