Saturday, 15 October 2016

[BTS fanfic] Love me, not (5)

<< Love me, not (4)


It was 2AM.
Jungkook was giving her a piggyback to their dorm.
Jin walked beside him while looked around making sure no one were watching them since they dropped off.
They took a taxi from Hongdae.

Jin opened their dorm's door.
To his surprise, Joon and Jimin were standing at the entrance.

"Where the hell are you going, hyung? Do you see Jungkook? You both not even picking up your f***ing phone!" Joon was obviously worrying pissed off while Jimin looked so worried.
Then they both became silence when they saw Jungkook with her.

"What's going on?" Jimin asked.
"Joon-hyung, let me use our room. I'll use my bed" Jungkook said and walked straight to their room.
Jin later explained the situation. Tae who slept on the couch in the living room was awake now and eavesdropped their conversation. Same goes to Yoongi from his room. Hoseok was sleeping soundly.
Jungkook came out from the room and fell himself on Tae.

"Yahhh" Tae screamed in pain then pulled himself off the couch.
"I'm tired" Jungkook said with his eyes closed.

"Let's all sleep here tonight. I don't want to wake Yoongi up" Jin said. He afraid his roomate might woke up if he went into the room now.
Jimin laid down beside Jungkook and hugged him tight. Tae slapped Jimin's head and forced him to sleep in their room.
Joon and Jin took a seat and dozed off in sitting position.

The night passed.

***

"You're awake?" Joon asked politely. I always love to hear whenever he speak English in their videos.
Now listened he said it personally, I was pretty sure I blushed.
"You look red. Are you hurt?"
I put my hands on both my cheeks. I cannot look straight to their faces.
"Aniya. Gwenchana."

Then I realized I wasn't wear my scarf I started panicking.
Jin seemed to know what's going on he immediately pulled my scarf on the chair and gave it to me.
"Ahh...sorry," Joon turned his face from me.
I was blushing even more, wore my scarf and pulled the blanket up to my nose.
"What's happened?" I mumbled.
The door snapped open, Tae jerked his head inside.
"Morning noona. I told you, you should just stay... see you later."
Tae soon left for his acting schedule.

That morning passed very fast.
I had had a light breakfast with all of them but Tae, Joon explained the situation last night, later they dropped me by at the train station before they went to the bighit studio for their routine practices.

Here I was, in the airport one day later, waiting for my flight
It was a hectic week and now thinking back, I was very glad for the chance
to come here
to meet them
personally.

beep beep
a text came in,
Noona, please come again. have a safe flight. I love you.
it came from unknown number
I immediately believed it was one of them
someone must took my number while I was sleeping
but who?
so I replied,
Thank you. Who's this?
no reply.
even after few months passed since then,
there's no reply.
I was back to my daily routine, they were done promoting their new album in Korea and started their world tour.

***

I met them again
by wearing staff's tag, I stood near an entrance watching them perform on stage
it was incredible. at last, I was able to be there in their concert
since I came back from to Korea last year, I started to withdraw myself from the fandom
too busy with work and just coming back from Mecca, it felt wrong to be a fangirl again
one year passed means one year older, I guess it's my time to stop.
9 years as kpop fan and 2 years as ARMY, I barely managed to stop myself.

even after knowing BTS came to Malaysia, I don't have time to fight over the ticket which sold out very fast..
but then I got a text from that number the day before the concert,
Hi. I miss you. Do you come to the concert? Let's meet again. It's Namjoon here :)


  

Cypher pt 4

I’m sorry bae because I’m breathing
I’m sorry bae because I’m so healthy
I’m sorry bae I’m broadcasting
Errthing errthing errthing
Sorry bae
The sound I’m making right now, bae
Is all dog noise to someone, bae
You should change your bashing pattern, bae
It’ll start to get boring, boring bae
I don’t dislike you anymore
I don’t dislike you anymore, sorry bae
I’ll be the drum, just hit me hard
Let’s just try it, samulnori, bae
I’m a monster, my tail is too long, bae
You’ll shoot me anyway, bae
In that case, a zoo would be more comfortable, bae
You want it too, something to chew on, bae
Even if you don’t like me, you know me
Even if you don’t like me, you know me
I like hate comments more than no comments
I don’t know you
But you know my name

I love I love I love myself
I love I love I love myself
I know I know I know myself
Ya playa haters you should love yourself
Brr


Ya playa haters you should love yourself

Tbh cypher is never be my favourite songs
no offense, it just me who not a hiphop lover
why love BTS, because they're more than just hiphop 

but cypher pt 4 is the only cypher I could listen to with such contentment 
especially during rapmon's part
i'm not into fanwar cause when it comes to war, no one win...it just 2 immature people condemn each other
but if someone dissing BTS, calling them with bad names, drag them low etc, i am mad
not reply anything though, just mad by myself
and feeling like put this lyrics of rapmon's part on their face

Ya playa haters you should love yourself
  
"Keep away from people who belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great." --Mark Twain

Tuesday, 11 October 2016

Blood, Sweat and Tears

The 7 Deadly Sins
I can't reject it anyway
I can't even escape anymore
You are too sweet, too sweet
My blood sweat and tears

The mv itself is sinful enough
And someone said about the 7 deadly sins according to bible 
Greed
Sloth
Lust
Gluttony
Wrath
Envy
And worst of all, pride.

I'm a muslim.
I know very little of christianity
So I'm sorry if my readers, who i believe came from different races and religions, not agree with what I'm about to write
It is only my opinion
Who still, as a muslim, lacking in so many ways
I'm learning too, still learning and will always be.

Boy meets evil
How a person meets his own temptations
As a way of growing up
So those 7 deadly sins mentioned in the bible are not against islam
They are charateristics of a person can has, or could also be one person's intention based on his emotions 

Greed 
Excessive pursuit of material possession
Big houses, big cars and big rings
Worldly material that seems to never get enough
Being rich is not a sin
We are encouraged to work hard to achieve our dream, to fulfil our needs
But when the desire become strong enough that a person don't care about good or bad as long as he get the wealth, even he needs to destroy others to that matter, that's when things are going wrong
The evil wins.

Here a video that I love to watch regarding this matter: https://youtu.be/nFbhutAJHhI

Sloth
Excessive laziness or failure to act and utilize one's potential
Shows by jungkook in the mv, the way he swings and lays down on bed looking on the ceiling not doing anything 
Well, this is something I usually become
Especially on weekend
Although it heavily mentioned in the holy Quran;
'By the time. Verilyn man is in loss' [Al-Asr':1-2]
I usually say to my kids,"if you are lazy, I can't help you. Only if you are willing to learn then I'll be able to help you"
Sometimes, it is easier to say than done
Let's work harder!

Lust
Uncontrollable passion or longing, especially for sexual desires
I'm not married yet, can't say much on this
Moving on >_<

Gluttony
Excessive ongoing consumption of food or drink
Shows by rapmonster in the mv, the way he drinks and smokes and sings about food
Nowadays eating is not just to fill your stomach but more to luxurious means
Food porn, they said
Taking pictures before eat, dine out in expensive restaurant or hipster cafe, buffet style and so on
A question for us to ponder,"do you eat to live or live to eat?" ;)

Wrath
Uncontrollable feelings of anger and hate towards another person
Shows by jhope in the mv, the way he sings his part and shooting arrows
This may lead to murder in extreme cases
Even here in Malaysia, there's always murder cases on news frontpage due to hatred and jealousy
When emotions take over your rationality, it hurts...

Envy
Desire to have or experience that someone else possesses
Jealousy or hasad is a disease of the heart
In fact the first sin that was ever committed
When Allah said to the angels to bow down to Adam, Iblis (devil) refused because he was jealous to the honor that God gave to Adam
The devil said to God, "This one whom you have honored above me, if You give me respite to the Day of Judgment, I shall surely bring his descendants under my sway, all but a few" (Sura Al-Isra' verse 62)

Islam allows competition in goodness where people try to excel ad do things better, but without getting involved in hatred and jealousy and without wishing bad things for others
Why this make me think of the fanwars that are going on non stop in twitter
Like seriously...

The Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) said,“Do not be jealous of each other, do not boycott each other, do not hate each other, do not contrive against each other. Be all of you brothers to each other, O Servants of Allah.”

Pride
Excessive view of one's self without regard to others
Shows by Jin in the mv, at the end of the mv where he looks at the flower called narcisst and then he turns his face to the mirror and his face cracks
It's Jin, you know..the most confident man regarding his beauty :p
I mean, pride is good with the thing you believe in
Like I have pride about islam
No matter how sinful I became I believe islam is the best way of life
Just don't hate
That view of one self doesn't give us the right to drag others down
That pride, hold it for what really matters.

Now as I just learned there's hadith about 7 deadly sins in islam
So I better share it as well...

Narrated Abu-Huraira (may Allah be pleased with him); ‘The Prophet (SAWS) said: “Avoid the seven great destructive sins.” The people enquired; ‘O Allah’s Messenger! What are they?’ The Prophet (SAWS) said: To join others in worship along with Allah, to practise sorcery, to kill the life that Allah has forbidden except for a just cause (according to Islamic law), to eat up usury, to eat up the orphan’s wealth, to show one’s back to the enemy and fleeing from the battlefield at the time of fighting, and to accuse the chaste women, who never even think of anything touching chastity and are good believers.” (Bukhari).


7 deadly sins according to islam

The christians' 7DS focus on individual characteristics
While islam focus on how to protect islamic society as a whole
Watch this video if you want to learn more about this: https://youtu.be/OXa80iqZQqI
The video is the reason I wrote this post


Fuhhh why all this big talks on religion?
It is great, BTS did it again! They inspired us to learn more than our comfort zone
And Lumpen, the mv director, for being all artsy with these concepts
I am afraid at first, the concept is too deep and sinful for me but then I started to read
I used to think learning other's religion would shaken my faith
But instead, it strengthen up! Make me say I am a proud muslim.
Even I'm not a good muslim myself yet, but at least I would not just saying I am muslim because my parents are muslims too
I am muslim because I choose to be muslim, as a way of life.

Temptations are always there chasing you down
Like how the 7 boys make my life upside down
But still
Utilize them for our own good and not the other way around
Keep fighting!