To. BTS
Annyeong guys. I'm Hana 🌹 This is my first time writing a letter to you, it would be the last time too. I'm a noona fan. I was a bit late of being your fan though. Somehow i only knew bout BTS during HYYH pt 2. I was a kpop fan since 2007 but stopped bout 4 years due to my studies. Life had been such a rollercoaster ride after i'd graduated in 2014. On December 2015, my ex fiancè broke our engagement 2 months before the wedding. I was devastated, it was such a worst moment in my life. So then I got myself back into my craze in kpop and I met you. During The Most Beautiful Moments in Life.
End of 2015.
The songs in HYYH pt 2 hit me hard. So relatable, they spoke my feelings in the songs. I used to read lyrics' trans cause i don't know hangul. Reading bangtan songs lyrics translation though is so full of emotions. And stories that I can relate so much. Youth and life. As Namjoon said, you made the songs about struggles so people who listen will not struggle as much. I never fall in love this hard. Before this i might stan a group because there's someone i like (into my likings) in the group.
But with BTS, i love you all. Even i have Yoongi as my bias, i still love each one of you as a whole. When i listened to Run and Butterfly, they touched my deepest heart. I wished i could run for all the breakdowns and fly like a butterfly.
I started to know ARMYs around the world through twitter. And i would like to thank you a lot BTS, for having a great fam called ARMYs alongside with you guys. The only internet friends i have that i actually met in real life are ARMY. Thru BTS events in Malaysia, i met my mutuals and even become real friends. I'm very glad for that.
My family sometimes questioned me why I'm too obsessed with you guys. I can't answer them right away. The feelings that i feel all these while. After my broken engagement, my mom got sick. She had cancer. I called 2016 as my BTS year, cause all the good things I remembered were from you. Young forever released. I got myself into fanart community on twitter too. Drawing is always be my forte but i never get myself into digital, but I started learning to draw better fanarts because of you. On my birthday early this year, my mom gave drawing tablet as a gift. Also in 2016, I bought my first kpop merchandise - young forever album. Then I bought all your previous albums. Me barely spent for myself except for foods but when it comes to your albums, I'm glad I spent my money on those. Supporting you guys really gave me so much content. When you won daesang for the 1st time, me watching you through live stream, i never cry over kpop but you guys really touched my heart. Your hardwork and love towards us ARMYs made me proud of being part of this family. Knowing so many ARMYs too made me so attached with you. You brought me happiness :')
Early this year, my mom's condition getting worse and she passed away on April. So I decided to sell everything that I had been collecting. I want to move on. It was hard though. Cause after her passing, I got myself into depression again. So I keep myself busy with you to entertain myself but I know, deep inside, my heart was empty.
I'm 27 now and am getting married on coming November with different guy. I believe you might only read this letter, if u ever read it, after my marriage. But that's the reason i'm leaving this beautiful moments i had with you, the reason why this would be my last love letter for you. I'd loved you these past two years and i'll love you forever but i wont be there with you, supporting all the way cause I need to create life of my own, raise my own family. I hope you'll pray for me too to achieve my own beautiful moments in life.
Thank you BTS -- Namjoon, Seokjin, Yoongi, Hoseok, Jimin, Taehyung, Jungkook, despite you guys are younger than me, thank you for all the good words you shared in your musics, the messages you've trying to convey through your songs, the positive vibes you potray through your dedication and hard work, your love towards each other and ARMYs. Thank you for being part of my youth. No words can describe enough my grateful of knowing you guys. Thank you.
I wish you all the best in the future. Keep spreading good messages, great musics and positive attitude. Be humble. Be youself and love yourself too. Like how ARMYs always love you. Please take good care of yourselves and I love you. Saranghae and goodbye ♡
Yours sincerely,
Hana 🌹
@MinHana26
