The realms of day and night

Two different worlds coming from two opposite poles mingled during this time

We living in a good life.
We living in a bad life.

We got different start and stories
We got different nights and mornings

So what I was saying in my twitter; if u know me irl, please pretend u don't...
Like I am some kind of secret agent living a double life
Of me asking should I post more personal stuff on twitter or should I keep it as kpop related only, so I thought me being a kpop fan is not personal?
In fact it is, like my friends irl never know me in twitter and I might say to them "it's personal" while my mutuals never know me irl and I would say "it's personal"
Which person I am then?

Someone then may ask, what's the matter with u? R u a celebrity irl?? Stop being hypocrite! Dun lie!!!
Well, I never lie...I'm just not tell everything and be transparent.
Why?
Because u will judge me hard if u know both of me...
Only my family know these double life of mine and they occasionally judging me here and there

Why are u like this when u actually do this?

Be like what? Do what?

I told somewhere in the blog and twitter too that I am a teacher
Some of my mutuals were impressed and wish they have a teacher who also an army
So now, if I tell u I am ustazah (a religion preacher) would u still be impressed?
Someone who teach bout islam but stan kpop? Ridiculous!
Why the double standards?

I'm not ustazah though, but yeah..
this kind of double standards on how people look and judge brought me into these two sides of me which both are personal
Both makes me as myself

Life is about choices
That's why I love Namjoon's lyrics the most because he keep bringing that topic
Of choices in life

And I was reminded just now with the verses from Quran chapter 69 Surah Al-Haqqah

That Day, you will be exhibited [for judgement]; not hidden among you is anything concealed.

So as for he who is given his record in his right hand, he will say, "Here, read my record!

Indeed, I was certain that I would be meeting my account."

So he will be in a pleasant life -

Because he living in a good life

But as for he who is given his record in his left hand, he will say, "Oh, I wish I had not been given my record

[ Allah will say], "Seize him and shackle him.

Then into Hellfire drive him" 

Because he living in a bad life

In the day, all the secrets, having a double life or whatnot are going to be revealed.

So what choice that I made?